Too much

I'm not a stupid person, at least not in the ways most cultures define stupid. I received good grades and took challenging classes throughout school. I've had difficult jobs yet performed them well. I usually rank fairly high in most IQ quizzes and tests. I'm usually fairly quick to grasp new concepts and skills and to build and expand that knowledge. I have a deeply innate awareness of my own body and it's needs. I'm well connected to the environment around me, and I'm decent at working with other people.

So why can I not do this whole business thing?!?

This is going to sound mean, but there are some pretty dumb people in business for themselves. How the hell did they manage to fight their way through the red tape and road hazards just to establish a business, let alone cope with the rampant bureaucracy to keep that business financially viable and productive. Dealing with the very edges of it has taken 2 full days! And we're not even done yet! At each step there are new and more depressing pit falls, bumps, wrong information, and humiliation galore. And when you think you've finished hacking through the forests of bullshit and managed to finish one step bringing you closer to your end goal, you discover that the step you just completed added three more steps to your list of shit-that-may-actually-kill-me-but-has-to-get-done.

So I thought, "Do most people hire someone that is masochistic enough to make this their life's work?" And maybe, but it would cost thousands! We simply cannot take that route. So we're left to muddle through, hoping against hope that we're doing it right.

Hoping against hope that this doesn't destroy whatever is left of my sanity.